ShmemstheButler

Wow! It's been forever since I've been on here! I feel like it's been years since I've talked to ay of you! I wonder if you guys still look at my old stuff or would read this when it comes up! Anyway~ I'm hoping to get back into my art and loading it on here! Sadly I have some new stuff but right now I'm using my mom's computer cuz mine's busted for now so I can't load them yet! But hopefully I can show them to you all soon! :3 (I've even forgotten almost all of the icons you can type! So if you do read this go ahead and put some icons in there for me! 8D)

Okay...so look. The last journal...was stupid. I talked to my friends and they told me why they think I act like this and it makes a LOT of sense so I'm going to fix this. Not TRY...I'm GOING to. By this time tuesday I WILL be myself again! I am going to stop being an attention whore and deal with this the RIGHT way.

I'm done...I-I...I can't do it anymore...I can't handle this anymore! I have tried...beyond anyone's belief...to try and get better...but I can't. I have tried with all my being to make myself better and NONE of it has worked. I ALWAYS feel depressed...I ALWAYS feel left out...and I ALWAYS feel like a burden or feel like I'm pissing my friends off. And I CAN"T TAKE IT anymore...I have at least three MAJOR crying break downs a day, my fourth being right now. What makes this all worse is that I'm getting a pool, I got a computer, my friends are trying to help me...but none of it is working in making me better. NOTHING works...I don't want to fe